What can I get for my anxiety?

I am 16 and need something to treat my anxiety. The doctors I am seeing won't prescribe it because I "abused" small amount of it. I would self medicate on .25 mg doses and so they dont trust me with them or klonopin or Valium ect. Is there anything else that could work. The ssri and snri give me extremely worse depression when I take them. I've tried pristiq (3 months up to 50 or 100mg o forget) and Prozac aka the dick killer (went to 20 and they finally took me off it after 4 months of me having suicidal thoughts and cutting as well as over an over dose on ccc) I have been clean from drugs for a few months and actually havnt thought about them since Rly. But I just can't handle this anxiety. I literally am in a panic attack state all day if there is more then 2 people around me. Doctors and therapists think I'm fine though because 1 on 1 and small structured groups I do great in for somereason. Any help would be awsome.